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Name: Brad
Location: Lancaster, Pennsylvania, United States
Birthday: 11/11/1979
Gender: Male

Interests: is it possible to narrow it down? in my two-and-a-half decades of life, i have found that life interests me in many facets, more than i can count. i can find myself interested in the complex workings of politics or philosophy. i can also find myself overcome with wonderment, facination, and interest with a brilliant sunset. my interests seem not only to deepen with time, but to broaden. and i love that they do. i suppose the most pertinent update to this (which i haven't done in quite some time) would be to say that i have found myself quite interested in a particular young lady. yup. definitely interested.
Expertise: i claim expertise in nothing, since that would necessitate the personal audacity to deem myself an expert over-and-above similar others. i have far too much more to learn and develop before i would claim that. instead, i will simply list those items in which i take particular interest: theology, philosophy, the written arts, the trade of the thespian, and the mental health profession.
Occupation: Other
Industry: Nonprofit

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Friday, December 26, 2008

christmas in a storm

so this life thing just keeps on rolling, and some times i feel like i'm the steaming pile of tar waiting for the steamroller to flatten me out. and with all the craziness piling up, with all that i have to get done in the next week, it is easy to understanding why i would feel that way.

luckily, i don't feel that way.

now, i'm not saying i'm not stressed or that i wouldn't

like to push that magical fast-forward button to skip past the upcoming week here, but i am excited about this next stage of life. and it is exciting to be making this journey with my best friend - and this time, she's just as excited as i am!

it has been wonderful to celebrate our second christmas together, too, even though we are in the midst of such a HUGE change, but what has served as our ballast and keel has been focusing on the "why" of christmas. it's bigger than gift-giving and more important than family ... that little baby, the great mystery of the God of eternity becoming fragile man. that's been the best of the best.

peace - b

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Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Currently Listening
Art of Motion
By Andy McKee
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a monster called worry

i'm an anxious guy. not the curl-up-in-a-ball-in-the-corner -of-the-room-type or anything like that, but i do tend to over-think things and can begin to cascade down the precipice of worry if i don't reel in those thoughts. my professional training over the last several years provides some good strategies to make sure that i don't take the plunge, but my practice of faith is even more bolstering.

this morning, i find myself leaning heavily on those beliefs that have become so dear to me.

what i mean is this, and i am working quite hard to avoid anything political here, which is absolutely not my intent - nothing divisive is being orchestrated here. but, simply as background to my state of being, i am very concerned with the election results. it is my belief that many very dangerous and harmful policies and ideologies are espoused by an inexperienced man who was elected as commander in chief of america last night. enough ... nothing else on that.

what i am really saying is this: as a person of faith in Christ, my hope and assurance and confidence and overall sense of "okayness" with the world do not rest in the hands of a democrat or a republican or a libertarian or any other political or social figure in our world yesterday, today, or tomorrow. my faith guides me that there is One who is in charge, One who is able to protect me in the storms of life, One who is able to bring joy out of sorrow and suffering, One who is sovereign when things look swell and when they appear monstrous.

it is an amazing thing, as i have adventured ahead on this journey of faith, to learn to trust my God with all parts of me, my life, and my world. even when the stuff of life would otherwise wildly trigger those anxious thoughts and feelings, i am lead on a grand journey of deeper understanding and wild exploits.

and so, life is good. very good.

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Thursday, October 30, 2008

Currently Reading
How We Love: Discover Your Love Style, Enhance Your Marriage
By Milan Yerkovich, Kay Yerkovich
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loaded for bear (part one)

mono really limits your extracurricular activities - seriously limits them. simple things, like walking down the stairs to your apartment to go get the mail or take out the trash, wipe you out. with these restrictive limits (read here, "really only able to sit in one spot or sleep"), i am finding myself with a plethora of time to consume the hours with sleeping, reading, and thinking.

while these are things that i find in short supply during the entire course of my non-mono-infected life, two weeks of this sedentary life style is driving me i-n-s-a-n-e. however, i have gotten some reading done that i have wanted to do (though about an hour of even this low-level activity can drain me these days). i've noticed a theme as i've read various tomes covering a variety of themes and subjects is that everyone thinks they've got the silver bullet.

and one of the things that i've really come to believe is that there are no silver bullets.

don't get me wrong: there are lots of werewolves, vampires, and other assorted monsters and creeps in this world that a silver bullet would be just swell to have in the ol' revolver, but it just ain't so. as hard as it is to do, we need to have a varied arsenal at our command, a big toolbox in the shed, or whatever analogy you want to stick in there. maybe i'm spouting common knowledge here, but it seems like we're all looking to find the panacea that will cure all the ails in our own little worlds.

but that cure-all remains ellusive. and that ellusivity? it's permanent. you can't find it, because it's not there. but still we look, we seek, we toil. if only we can find that one way to answer it all ... and so we spend our energies trying to find a way to solve it all with the silver bullet.

now, my faith in a way is that silver bullet ... it provides absolute truth, a keel in the midst of a wildly raging sea, and practical ways of dealing with the insanity of life. but even my faith requires looking for ways of expressing it and living it and taking it to my hurting world in a different way everwhere i look.

and i think that's it ... we need to be willing to diversify our lives and our thinking and our applications and our ways of doing life. no silver bullets, but a quiver full of different arrows that can be used in a myriad of ways. (think i can stick in any more metaphors into this post?)

this is all quite abstract ... perhaps a bit more concrete in my next post. but hey ... i've got mono, so cut me some slack. geez. ;^)

peace - b

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Saturday, June 14, 2008

Currently Listening
Perfectly Clear
By Jewel
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hey all ... the time has come, and i'm making the switch. i will try to check in here occasionally, but i think i will be moving my blog site to http://gromis.blogspot.com/ for the foreseeable future. check me out there, and feel free to leave comments.

see you all 'round the block.

peace - b

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Monday, June 02, 2008

Currently Reading
Church History Volume One: From Christ to Pre-Reformation: The Rise and Growth of the Church in Its Cultural, Intellectual, and Political Context
By Everett Ferguson
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Big News

I'm changing jobs! Things got ... different at my last job, but a good door for work opened that is comparable in pay to what I was making. I will be doing management with Blockbuster ... quite different from what I've been doing for three years, but it will be a good move as I keep looking for options in full-time ministry. That's the scoop!

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